Well, i have decided that life is ready for a change,m i have had enough of the same old same old, i need to be able to breath.
I love my job but it dosnt make me happy, im here every day but never really here,
Im dreaming about the life that im supposed to have an have done enough dreaming and am ready to act on it.
I have a boyfriend that i love, but havnt told him,
Im open and happy and bubbly on the outside, but on the inside in synical untrusting and fat,
well not really fat i weigh63kg and am 5'7
I suffer from eating disorders, unfortunitly i cant just have one so anorexia takes up half my life and bulimia the other, its hard when half of you is telling yourself to starve and the other half is saying just stuff your face and biff it back up later...that way you wont get any fatter.
My boyfriend dosnt know about my ed's, he told me i was a bit chubby and brought me an eliptical, little does he know he is buying into and supportimg my ana and mia, i can say to him, im not eating today, i need to fast im feeling fat andhe kisses me and tells me that im awsome, ive never had to not hide my disorder before.
Still dosnt mean that i will tell him, this is going to be my story, my rise to the top, would love your support. xxx
Miss Empire
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